So, it’s been a while since I’ve blogged last. Now that I have a break in between semesters, I thought I’d pick it up again. And since it’s New Year’s Day, I thought it’d be an opportune time to reflect on what the Lord has done in me this past year.
2012 has been full of many transitions. After living in a house full of women for several years, I moved into a studio apartment by myself. My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. I started a new school. I switched jobs…three times. And lastly, I found love. With each transition came a new discovery of myself, and God’s perspective for me. I wept tears of confusion and despair, as well as tears of joy and gratitude.
When things are uncertain, it’s like seeing a fog of grey, when all you are searching for is a ray of light. And even though trusting God’s sovereignty should be enough, sometimes it felt like I was hanging by a thread. There were times I wrestled and doubted how God would bring glory of this mess… times that I was literally on my face trying to stir this heart of mine to be in alignment with what He had in store. I believe in that moment… He saw me.
And even though the process was longer than I might have liked, God always knows what will bring about the best results. And as I write this, my heart is overflowing with gratitude for all that God has done. Mom is getting stronger every day, victoriously finished her chemo and radiation. My most recent job transition has brought so much relief to both my bank account, and my emotional stress level. Living by myself has allowed for deep moments between just me and Jesus, and a quiet place of peace. And after wondering where love would find me… now the man I love will be joining me in California to meet my parents.
So, I guess I’m approaching 2013 with a fresh set of eyes, far beyond a perspective I could’ve conjured up on my own. Instead of wishing that 2013 is a smoother year, I pray that today you and I both learn to trust the perfect leadership of Jesus more and more. That we would be blessed by whatever He entrusts us with…that we flourish into who He’s made us to be, regardless of what that may require.
“Every word of God is flawless; He is a shield to those who take refuge in him.” –Proverbs 30:5
“Those who know your name trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you.” –Psalm 9:10
“You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.”—Isaiah 26:3
