Saturday, July 10, 2010

This soldier knows, the battle with the heart isn't easily won.

We are all in search of something…but what is it? What exactly is it that we desperately seek? All of our journeys look different, but we all have one thing in common: the reason we have embarked on such a quest. Some of us have found it, and others still seek it. But whether we have found it yet or not, we are all desperate to fill the gap. The answer is Love. The one that designed it, brought it into existence, and who exudes the very definition of it. His name is Jesus, the author of the very emotion and experience we all crave.

If all of humanity is simply scientific, how can we find reason for these deep longings of the heart?

Why is one of the biggest fears we have as humans, the fear of ending up alone?

If we weren’t designed for love, then why does rejection sting and wound our hearts so significantly? And even once we are wounded by love, we still run after it. We are reckless, willing to risk another potential blow to the heart in hopes that maybe next time love will surprise us, and heal all of our scars. But you see, I think that is part of the problem. We want no trace of our past wounds, we want no reminders of our mistakes. And as long as we keep hoping and wishing for a love that will completely erase these things, we will always be disappointed.

Love came, and surprised me… it wasn’t the love I had expected to find. It was a love that didn't require me to put my "best foot forward"...because He already knew it all. And although He has mended this wretched heart of mine, I have stopped wishing the scars were gone. Instead, I am finding that through the scars,...He is proudly the champion of my heart. Suddenly they no longer represent foolishness; Instead they scream, "He chose me still."

Love like His is inescapable, and we will never deserve it. And yet, He offers it to us without hesitation. I heard once that true love is a great mystery...and in this case, I wholeheartedly agree.